400 sq. ft.

If you would have told me a year ago that I'd spend Sunday July 17th 2016 cleaning the floors of my very own apartment, I wouldn't have believed you.

Life changes quickly. I've spent much of today processing the fact that I now live in Long Beach. (!!!?) Moving out grows you up overnight. It's a mixed bag of emotions. I am so excited to be here, decorating and nesting, and making this 400 square ft. apartment a place that I genuinely love to spend time. Annnnd I am simultaneously stretched and scared and overwhelmed by all of the things. Like buying utensils and toilet paper. 

This experience is entirely new for me. I am very quickly learning how to do everything from grocery shop for myself to putting all of my trust in Jesus and letting Him carry me through the parts that I don't understand. Like I said, it's a mixed bag. There's a different magnitude and weight to each and every thing. 

In a lot of ways I feel like I am living dreams and making positive steps towards growth, but honestly, growing pains and adjustment periods are real and weird and lonely.

All the while I am overwhelmed with gratitude. It's crazy the things you get through that you never think you will. 

These are the times I am going to tell my kids about someday. I never want to forget what the light looks like on the drive home.