21 June 2011
Anonymous asked: what is your biggest fear?
i don’t really know what my biggest fear is. i think if i’m being very honest it’s being alone. not like the kind of alone where i’m sitting in my room by myself, but the kind of alone where i don’t feel loved by anyone, or like everyone is going on with their lives and leaving me behind. that kind of alone scares me a lot.
3 June 2013
Today was my second to last day of high school. I ate a lot of nachos and I have no regrets.
You asked me if I ever wished for a do-over and I said no, but I think maybe I lied. I might go back and un-break a few hearts.
I keep saying that I am ready to graduate because I think it's the right answer and I want to sound brave but I think I’ll miss high school on days when all my friends are gone and I am feeling lonely.
We all come to this cross road sometime or another. We are sorry for the person we are becoming or the friendships we left behind, but we are sure of the choices we are making. At least for now.
25 June 2013
Sometimes, we don’t want to do something for someone, but we love them so we do it anyway.
Love can be giving up a nap. In fact, I am learning that that is mostly what love is. Because naps are great and really hard to give up. Especially when you have mono.
Today, love was giving up a nap. Maybe that is something that only we will understand, but that's okay.
I know you're tired, but I love you. I'll kiss your eyelids while you sleep.
28 June 2013
You make me think, kid. You make me judge less and understand more, and it’s something wonderful that I never expected to learn. I am starting to see the world for myself. I can feel myself changing and growing. I like sitting next to you watching you smoke a pipe full of tobacco. I wish I could freeze time. I want to remember how sure I feel right now.
22 June 2014
It might all be falling apart. I might be oblivious to the whole thing.
23 June 2015
I want to date a good guy. I could deal with being treated right and I won’t deal with anything less. HOWEVER. I am learning that I will never be able to date someone who is closed minded. Life is so big and wonderful and there’s so much to try and do. There’s so much you can’t understand. I think sometimes the good guys I meet are really just a bunch of closed minded pricks who are putting up a front to impress others with just how good they are. Like, for real, don’t shake your head no like its the most unquestionable thing in the world when I ask you if you’ve ever tried drugs. Don’t shame people who struggle with identifying their sexual orientation. You have a problem with the naked body? Dang. That’s a bummer. You’re missing out on some killer art. I don’t even know anymore. I’d just be so happy to meet someone who was good hearted and open minded. I feel like people are so black and white and boring. Maybe I just need to get out of this town.
24 June 2015
Some people don’t believe in self love. They say that it’s wrong and that you can have too much of it, but self love is sometimes the only thing that gets me through the day, so I disagree. I think you should love yourself and be your own best friend. You should want to have coffee with yourself and buy flowers for yourself and get dressed in the morning to make yourself feel pretty. It’s not self absorbed to think, “hey, I’m cool, and I am worthy of a full and happy life.” I hope that other people will have your back when you make the radical decision to choose you.
9 June 2016
Let me live creative, wild, and true.
6 June 2017
Is this what yellow feels like
Can emotions reach across sky
I want you to feel all of me in your heart